Friday, February 15, 2013
10:43 PM
End of the the week
This week felt like forever. and im 2 lazy and too tired to update on what happened today...
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JJ pic I created last year...while i still had photoshop. anyways, i spent quite a LONG time creating this last year. 100% created by me :D well cept for some parts like JJ..but yeahh. rest like background, the faint lights of circles, all by myself. |
Happy late Valentine's day. was gonna post my artwork from last year yesterday for V day, but i was too.....(yeahh)...yesterday.
got all 4's on my tests yesterday and today for math :D
besides that, life is bad..
i laugh at school and i keep my usual smile when i talk to my friends. but the minute we stop talking, the minute im alone and i have time to think in my head, the thought of saturn comes back. my friends distract me from thinking about him...if it wasn't for them, i'd be sad all day. i laughed more than usual today--probably to
distract myself from thinking about him.
but who would have thought? that under all the laughter and craziness today, im really
weak deep down, im on the verge of
breaking apart. and everytime i see them together in the hallway...i wanna punch something.
some of my frds say that i have
so many guys on my list of my cute guys, and a person even told me i should just focus on 1. the problem with that is if that "one" person doesnt pay attention to u, if they stop talking to you, if they get a girlfriend, ur left all alone, and u'll be crying ur heart out.
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version 2 includes lyrics from one of JJ's song. I, of course, have the version with no watermark (made by miranda). im using the 1st version (above) w/o watermark as my desktop background! |
with a list of cute guys, its like ur
love is divided. if one of them gets a gf, u have backup, u can look at the other cute guys in the hallways for comfort.
even tho i have a list, there's only
one that i really like. only one that I really care about. and i think some ppl dont understand that. on the outside, it seems like im obsessed with so many guys, and even if i end up with one of them, i'd be thinking about another one.
but no. its like...only
ONE of them is possible. only one really exists. there is only one that im obsessed with. the rest are like
celebrity crushes. they're hot..but they're not necessarily good....and they're close to impossible to get. but, they won't ever break ur heart or leave u because they don't even no u at all, compared to the one that you know, that u say hi to everyday.
so...im not really "obsessed" with a lot of guys...they're just celebrity crushes...that go to my school. does that make sense?
i wonder what will happen next V day....sighhh....
[46th day of 2013: 4/10]
Labels: JJ Lin, reflection