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I've been meaning to post a week ago, but laziness got to me..again.
last week, i had a dream about cousin.
i dreamed that i was in taiwan, and he was healthy. he was in good shape, and had a healthier weight than when i saw him almost 2 years ago. i don't remember what we were talking about, but I know we laughed. and thats all i remember. and in my dream, he recovered.
sigh...



i had another dream about taiwan last night/this morning, but nothing special about that one. almost mid-winter break, yayyy.

there has been quite a lot of stuff on my mind recently. classes, college, friends, _ _ _ _, future, dreams.

allow me to rant about comp gov here, the rest are too private.
i've never felt so uncomfortable in a class in my whole high school career.
people in class are all smart as fuck, which makes me feel like a stupid ass shit. and i get that feeling that they're just judging you, always judging. whatever you say, whatever you do...
there was a debate 2 weeks ago or somethin' and evans told us not to get too confrontational so the quiet ppl won't get scared and not talk. well, guess what. like a good handful of ppl in that class are all in debate or has been in debate before. and for some time, it was literally just a back and forth conversation between those people. and do you know how uncomfortable that was.



first, there's no way of getting in the conversation without feeling like you interrupted into this highly intelligent adult conversation.
second, whatever you say will just end up sounding dumb and like it came from a 1st grader. and everyone will basically just ignore what u say.
i just get the feeling that in their minds, whatever anyone says is irrelevant and can be ignored.

the people in class as individuals are just fine, but as a whole group together, just no. i do have friends in that class, but that group of smart ppl..i just can't.



for comp gov, we are also doing this news update on a country, and it's on a rotating circle of 3 weeks. mine's this block day. and even though it's only 1 min of talking, idk why im more nervous than i should be. even though no one really pays attention to the ppl talking, i just feel like ppl are judging.

 and the thing is, i dont even feel this way in my other classes. I don't keep thinking others are judging me in my other classes. but in comp gov, there's not a day that passes without me thinking others are judging. 



also, allow me to complain about newport as a whole. this week is unity week. unity my ass.
and that "Newport Un-Cliqued" t shirt they're selling. please. newport is so fucking clique-y.
selling a fucking t shirt ain't gonna solve shit. stop fucking wasting resources and do something REAL about it. and this is not directed at anyone, just the whole school in general.
but i guess i shouldn't complain about other ppl, because even in my own fucking close friend group, some of them are exclusive as fuck. This really has been a problem recently and i am honestly so annoyed. But I keep quiet. oh, why do i keep quiet...?
Besides talking to LZ, this is the only other place I can put down my thoughts.

i really need to stop complaining...

went to Follies with RN, SN on friday. it was alright. nothing beat the one 2 years ago. Talents definitly wasn't as interesting as last year or the one before last year. 90% of it was singing. which was pretty boring. not only that, a long of singers just stayed there in place and didn't even move an inch. like please, can you please have some movements to the rhythm to the music. let your body become one withe the music.

there was this one girl who played guitar and sing, and that was memorable only because she was the only singer that basically moved with the music.

Laff Machine was the best this year though. Very nice and funny script that they wrote.


Chinese New Years tomorrow (or today in asia).
instead of unity and family, i feel the exact opposite.
sigh...
but as long as everyone is healthy, I'm satisfied.
hope this week goes smoothly.






[38th day of 2016: 5/10]

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