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First week back at school was ok...actually, it's been busy mostly because of Cisco and my Popular Literature class (BC). I really need to finish those Cisco labs before the end of the semester, also need to practice for those skills test. Next week is the last week before finals week on the 18th...

There were some surprises in regards to my Lit class. I knew, when I signed up that it was a lit class focused on the gothic/horror fiction genre. But, I only expected reading books and articles, not watching horror movies!! I was surprised to see that we will eventually watch 2-3 horror movies. One of them Rated R, the other rated PG-13 (still looked scary as fuck), and the other I don't remember its rating. Ughh..haven't watch horror movies in so long, and although I'd be ok watching horror movies with a group of friends, or in a class with a bunch of people, this is an online class, which means I'm pretty much alone on this. Mom did agree to watch it with me when the time comes though, thank God. For the scarier ones, I'll probably just skip around and turn the volume down low...

The other surprise comes from its workload. Soooo much reading to do!! We were assigned to read Frankenstein first, and that was to be finished in one week, followed with online discussions on Monday. There are 24 chapters total, I started reading on Tuesday...I'm not fond of the vocab, so I've been just fast reading/skimming. I only have Ch. 24 left, and I will finish it tonight. Yay! 

What else...ohh we have moved into Comparative Gov. now. Before taking the class, I was actually kind of interested to learn about other governments, and I still am I guess. But sighh...

The application for AID Summer in Taiwan has opened. And I'm still contemplating whether I should apply. It's so much work >.< You have to submit in your transcript, and like a personal essay, and the application form too off course. It's literally another college app. Haven't decided whether I should apply. 

On the other hand, I still haven't finished my U Mich app nor have I completed the WSU Scholarship Application. Btw, I got my 1st acceptance letter from WSU yesterday, on Friday the 8th. I'm actually considering now, whether WSU would be a choice. For one thing, WSU scholarships along with financial aid from FAFSA would most likely make WSU the cheapest option. In addition, I would be able to live in a dorm or apartment, away from my parents and friends. I know that I'm gonna miss my parents and friends if I do go, but...sometimes I really do get tired with both parents and friends. It seems like both together can sometimes be a source of my unhappiness...

Sometimes, I wish to isolate myself. Sometimes, I wish to start over in a place where no one knows me. Sometimes, I wish people would understand me...

If all universities I apply to accepted me, and if the cost for each school were to be the exact same, I would probably choose USC. Not because it's the most well-known school out of the ones I've applied, but because the major I'd study at USC would lead me one step closer to my dream career. I've already looked into the majors at USC, and they don't have Informatics/Information Systems major like at UW or at U Mich, but they have another one...one where I can disguise my interest and conceal my dreams behind a more "normal" major in the title. 

It's January 9th. You know what this means? 10 days until my birthday. I can't believe I'm gonna be 18 years old. Never thought this day would come. And truth is, as this age crept closer, I've been dreading this age. I don't wanna grow up. I don't wanna be an adult. After 18, I'll soon be 21...and then, I'll realllyyy be an adult. Sigh...

10 day countdown...I refuse to accept this >.< 

May 2016 and my 18th be one that's peaceful and may all that I love and all that love me be content and happy. 

[9th day of 2016: 3.5/10]