Monday, April 11, 2011
8:15 PM
ugh
ugh, i hate today. stupid sun.
SS- got our Red Scarf Girl books.
LA- changed seats. i sit next to Annalise N. and AW (again)
Chinese- nothin much
Health- nothi much. test on wed. soo not ready >.<
Science- changed seats. sit next to Shnia P. Ms.H told us about the new grading system, well eff the grading system. i hate it >:( now its harder for me to get an A, and u no what, some parents expects us to get A's (not mine) but still. Getting good grades is how i earn my money, my parents aren't rich, they buy me like 5 cloth in a year. if i wanted anything like clothes, shoes, i gotta buy them on my own. Cuz for ur information my parents are poor. we didnt have to pay a cent for cancer. (the money used on me b/c of cancer is enough 2 buy a whole house), my insurance is free, i use to get free lunches. my mom works at night. im not a spoiled kid. im just a kid trying to survive. ugh i dont no why im so mad today.
Math- nothin much, complicated stuff
Art- nothin much
I wish there was someone i could talk 2 about how i feel now. I kinda even wish i were back with the psychology. oh i dont think i ever mentioned this, but when i had cancer i went to see a psychology. and my mom insists that it was the psychology that got me to open up. i think not, maybe it pushed me a bit, but i think it's all because of Alisa L. If it wasnt for her i seriously doubt the psychology would work, and i seriously doubt i would get myself into so many trouble. I sometimes blame psychology for getting me so opened up. A part of me wants to go back to the shy quiet Miranda. Because only then do i not have to worry about what others thought of me.
Just like in a chinese song, it says that because we have so much freedom, we dont realize that and that makes us not have freedom at all. Does that make sense? no? too bad. basically if we had less freedom, and we were given a bit of freedom at some point, would then, we truly be experiencing freedom. So because i have so much freedom, i dont feel that.
i have noo idea what im typing, just random thoughts from the back of my mind. But i no one thing for sure, tonight when i write in my diary, the words are gonna fill up more than ever b4. B/c i have sooooooooooooo much to say,
that i cant say here.
oh, forgot one more thing. my bro mite be going to go biking with JC on sat....o.O